To all those annoying girls….
No matter how great the day someone will always fuck it up
Someone would rip my joy away from me like the funnies of an worn out newspaper
Someone will always be there to laugh
Laugh at my pain and suffering
Or just at me
I want that life
A life with no rules
No boundaries
No gates I’m tempted to open
A life with smiles and joy
Sure I have my moments
I have my dad days
And not as bad days
A truly genuine good day is rare for me
What’s a good day?
What’s the official definition?
Who made the definition?
I guess it doesn’t matter
I bet out of all te days I have been born upon this cooled hearted world
I had about 50 genuine goods days
That’s not a lot when your 15
Let’s see 15 times 365
:/ wouldn’t kno that of course
Angel would
God I mis angel
minutes that turn in to hours
Hours that turn into days apart
They kill me
Now all I wanna do is be done…
Done with family
Done with appearance
Done with fake smiles
Done with impressions
Done with pain
Done with life
That will hurt him bad I know it will
He’s the only one I can think about now
This is what I do when I’m suicidal
Make a list of people I will miss
Or that I believe will truly miss me
Let’s see….
Trinity
Angel
Teresa
Nana
Pastor
Cindy
Theo
Marquita
Jocelyn (I kno she will care)
Shelly
Daffy
Claudia
Nina
They will all think destiny?
No not destiny
Our destiny?
No way
She’s so…happy
As they look into my casket
Waiting for me to raise and yell
Just kidding its a huge joke
Trinity is what kills me
That little girl has honestly kept me alive
If something happened to me EVER
I want her to know that
She’s te reason
I can’t do this
All these thoughts are
Crazy to most
Physco maybe
But to me in a fuxked up way
It’s a comfort
Thinking people would really Care
Sometimes I believe it
Then I
Think about her
I would want everyone to know its her fault
SHES THE ONE!!!
The reason I did it
The reason destiny
Was found dead
On her bedroom floor with a knife placed against her wrist
In blood I would write
“it was her “
Next to I would be some sort of photo of her
My downer
My bully
My biggest critic
My mother
The one
Who made me
Tempted me
Practically forced me
The reason it is done
Wouldn’t it feel lovely knowing
EVERYONE KNEW IT WAS HER!
I believe that’s worth my life
I start to believe that then picture everyone I mentioned above and realize I can’t… She’s not worth it
Not worth breaking the heart of the people I love and I feel love me back
So I’ll stay and suffer in this earth
For asking as there is a soul alive that cares
Thank you to all who cares…
I love you
I cried so hard ;(
Made the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands <3333 #castingcrownspics these lyrics really reminded me of some verses <3 (Taken with instagram)
We’ll sing until the whole world hears…. #castingcrownspics <3 my mic (Taken with instagram)
We’ll sing until the whole world hears…..#castingcrownspics <333 Generation2GenerationChurch YouthBand<3 (Taken with instagram)
#iamsecond to one! He’s second to NONE
